Whoever saves one life, saves the world entire

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

:[ Turning Point (Heartbreak Hotel) ]:

Turning Point (Heartbreak Hotel)

It's over time
To be with you
Hope is not a crime
Your on my mind
I want to go to you but this chains of mine
Do my time
It's off
It cost
And i'm in the grind
It hurts my spine
I'm mending, changing
Don't want to be in crime

It's over the turning point
I'm not with you
I'm not where I used to flow
I'm not where I wanna go
It's over the turning point
I'm not with you
My battery is low
I have no control

I'll grasp for time
I know it's right
And I'll stay in line
I'll do my time
I'm a hero and this chains of mine
Will leave it's prime
And I'll be addicted
To this quest of life
Hope it's right
This time
I'm not going to sing and rhyme

It's over the turning point
I'm not with you
I'm not where I used to flow
I'm not where I wanna go
It's over the turning point
I'm not with you
My battery is low
I have no control

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 12:13 AM

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

:[ To QianLi ]:

~lamest guy ever exist on earth~
hoho..
dis blog is delicated to a new found collegue of mine. he's none other than ~Qian Li~
oh boy man.. how did u grow up? ha~ the tot of u realli make mi wana laugh sia.. do u noe dat ur sick smile is on my mind.. like a disease. He is the lamest guy u could possibly know sia. i can crack lame jokes sumtimes. but his is not even a joke. he's juz a lame teller. He makes every fren of mine a joy to be with. he juz walk everywhere with a smile, talk things out of no where, and continued wif a smile n laugh. and i m like 'huh.. u tellin mi a joke ar..?' its like 'did i mizz out sumthin??' u couldn't imagine wat i've been through sia. ha~ eg. juz nw 5plus i was sittin there with him listenin to him tok for 15mins to 20mins. he juz kip on smiling n laughin. i keep quiet all the way u noe. i juz look at him wif my head tilted and question marks over my white hair. he juz kip on tellin n smiling n 'hehe' n 'haha'. Boy oh boy he doesn't get it.. than in the end i suddenly burst out laughin.. i cannot stand it liaoz. n he ask mi "y i suddenly laugh?" "izzt bcoz juz nw he say about the showhand..?" haha i bue ta han. I was thinkin 'Oh Lord wat have i done..??' hw i wish my frenz were there wif mi.. yanling especially. we will look at each other n burst out laughin one..confirm. Here are some of the things he tell mi.. 1) He said last week he n his frenz go coffeeshop order drinks than the uncle ask want drink wat.. his fren say he want cold..cold erm cold teh bing. the uncle say ok, turn around n mumble.. "teh bing is cold wat..where got cold teh bing." than he burst out laughin.. wif action somemore.. than i go 'huh' 2) He say his fren call him 'lame de'. i was thinkin hmm mayb he noes himself ba. than he say 'one leg use the stick(he stand up n show mi) than 2 legs muz sit wheel chair.. is lame de lorr.' than he laugh out'..haha..' i becoming crazy liaoz. i dun get it. do u?? Than his fren calls him the lame spirit coz he is highest level liaoz.. than he 'haha' summore.. like proud like dat. I knn wana give him a slap. he givin mi headache sia.. he tell mi something about showhand than i burst liaoz. juz nw b4 we got into the car for lunch i ask him also, whu wana sit in front..? he say anythin.. so i say erm ok lorr than i be in the front. He stop mi say wait first we measure whu taller.. (I '??'.) than he "haha" n rush to open the front door. block my path also.. wa kaoz even dog more tamer.. got one time make mi fed up also. i was readin newspaper than he stand behind mi lookin over.. i tot he juz glimspe but i read wat he read wat.. i filp 3 pages he still lookin. than he so close sia.. i hear n feel his breathin on my shoulder. i got fed up. i turn around and say "eh.. u wan to read first anot? i give u read.." he said "ok lorr.. veri fast one." with a smile. i juz look at him. shake my head. i couldnt explain properly but u guyz shld be there to experience him. he is juz fantastic. Kip tokin about himself; his weekend go play lan game.. where he wana go.. his bmt.. last month watch wat movie.. Let mi tell this qianli something. Im not interested at all. one way to get mi interested is to tok about work or something i can relate to. ~i think i speak for everyboby~ u dun juz come in n splurt about your life story. u r gettin on my nerve. im not close to u n i dun give a damm. u r irritating n my young cousin is more mature than u. and please wipe dat silly smile off ur f**kin face u bastard. n do mi a favour will ya, pls die young..

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 10:47 PM

Sunday, December 12, 2004

:[ summary for the week ]:

summary for the week.. (dis one quite borin lah)

hey, end of the week again.. has been quite a relaxin week for mi
tuesday juz got back my bike. it was in good condition. SmoOoOth RiDiN Baby! long time neber ride so nice liaoz. n quite silent unlike b4. wen i ride arnd would make heads turn.
dis week mi also went to the library also.. Yesh I went library to borrow a book. Yesh i borrow a book for Myself mind u. the library in amk was so cool. upgraded oredy. almost 4got hw to borrow bk.
wed mornin went to take ippt at 6D. 1st station is pull up than fail. the rest i anyhw do liaoz. no point. but the rest anyhw do also can pass. after ippt i shld go back to ESPO to wrk but i went hm to bathe 1st. than sway sway my bike's clutch lost tension. i panick sia. wah tot yest juz service ok 2dae shit happen. cannot go wrk liaoz lorr. call up the wo harold take half day off. bike shop also say u come dwn do u muz pay the towin fee. 'wah such service ar!' i tot to myself. u anyhw shit i gotta wipe for u.. than i went to ali there do my bike no need money. phew..
than dis week i wash my bike twice.. wah ah lec wen become so kilat kilat..? hehe after ali, clean once than juz nw mornin clean also. ali dat day one i polish.. juz nw use water. tot of makin a point to wash n self service my bike once a month. at nite went to mit wenZhi. had dinner at bedok85. nxt time noe liaoz the mince pork mee cannot order $3 coz will eat sianz. muz order $2 everytime so can come often. after dat went to bugis.. she bought an organizer. mi wan to buy one also so can kip note of all my appointments; wen wash bike ar.. wen go watch movie.. wif whu.. mit whu.. blah blah.
thurs mi wen to church for e zone evangelistic meetin. it was great.. tok about Jesus wif the pharazees(duno hw to spell) n the adulterous woman. Jhn8:2-12. duno why but feel beri alive after dat.
friday tot can have tv dinner wif my mum but she went out. tot can go ktv but Wen go walk walk wif her fren. haiz mi early cannot confirm wif her so bobian.. but i did something fruitful that nite.. i practice my guitar!! haha lame rite.. but i didnt play for quite some time liaoz. i oredy have dis guilty feelin dis week liaoz. wah my finger tips are soarin sia.. e skin tear than slightly touch it will have the sensation liaoz. than juz nw also manage to practice awhile.
anywae b4 i write dis blog i juz came back frm Dr John Avanzini church svc. Wow glad i didnt mizz it. its about stewardship n Jehovah Jirah. im veri impacted by his msg. n zealous for his lifestyle.. i prayed in my room juz nw.. after sooo long since i last did it. ha~ call urself a christian.
later goin to watch Resident Evil 2. RE1 was a fav.
these 3 days feel insecure also.. duno why..
dats all for the week..
tune in nxt week for mattlex will cover subjects like 'mattlex on lurve' 'mattlex 1st preachin' n 'does donkeys n monkeys come frm the same ancestors??' well, till then folks! enjoy the rest of the year!~!

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 1:40 AM

Saturday, December 11, 2004

:[ Tribute to wenzhi ]:

Tribute to WenzHi~

she was there in my darkest travel
she was there in my lowest tide
she was there wen i hit the level
where i alone cannot survive

she couldnt be much better
she's more than wat i ask
mi in her riches she rems
in my lost she is not just

hw many times have she paid for mi
hw many times i didnt ask
hw many times did u encourage mi
wif ur smile n open heart

if u tot i had 4gotten
u r alwaes on my mind
i'll b thr the day u fumble
to catch every tear u cry

i will vote u out of survivor
ur worth a million more
u belong to e nation treasure
for everyone to adore

if i m santa dis xmas
ur the 1st on my list
i will give u andy lau
n my slade if u wish

dis hw much u mean to mi
often i do nt show
so here's a little treat for u
it's nt over, dun yet go

did u rem we skip classes
n all the prata we didnt pay
all e hills dat we had conquered
all the tyres we burn away

all e life dat we had wasted
concentration we had lost
exchange for a secret smile
in our memories, for dis cause

thank u for accepting mi
thx for giving a hand
u r nt everyone's angel
but u r someone's fren

u have help mi a great deal
all the wisdom u had shared
all the care u showered
n the love u did nt spare

juz wana thank u sweetie
all the things u had done
we'll con't on our life journey
till our grandson hear our songs

n meet again in our ripe old dayz
stealing prata if we may
running wif our walking stick
tonite go where play

like anot? my little hymm
jiu shi xie ge ni de
no more liaoz.. im signin off

from alexander
hehe~

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 1:24 AM

Monday, December 06, 2004

:[ Love dun hurt animore ]:

Haiz.. last friday after i left my bike in the workshop at yishun, ssg sasi fetch mi n we both went somewhere near his home to have a drink.. little did i noe that he lived at yishun ring rd same carpark as the one i park for almost one year.. the place dat i used to alwaes go~ my ex gf hm. sasi lived in the opp block. ha~ sasi n i went to a prata joint to sit. i finished my prata n at the corner of my eye, i saw a familiar face.. e girl that hurt mi the most.. my 5th ex. fancy seein her again after more than 5 mths. she n her current beau (e one she left mi for) wanted to eat at the same place too.. but the moment she saw mi she hide herself behind the pillar and pulled her bf back than she glimspe at mi awhile afraid i might notice her. than she walk slowly across the shop hiding herself behind her bf.. wen she left liaoz behind mi, ssg sasi said she got turn back to look at mi.
u noe wat.. i saw her b4 she saw mi and i fake fake didnt see her..
i didnt feel a thing for her lorr.. i con't to tok to sasi like nuttin like dat.. im not a good actor but i dun feel hurt wen i see her wit her bf. no doubt i got think of her after dat. i tot i should be crying. last time wen i hear of her new bf i cried silently in my rm. but nw i see wit my own eyes n i can still smile. i guess i oredy let her go.. ya?? mayb the feelin i haven't let go is the hurt ba.. wen i see her she dun look attractive to mi liaoz. its like i wouldnt want to woo her one lorr. she hid like a mouse, her hair like a lion n walk like a zombie. i know better quality girls than her. someone whu is realli attractive. but no doubt she is the one i love most so far.. i used to accept her.. oh well, if i didnt saw her i wouldnt noe i dun feel for her liaoz.

anyway, im beginnin to be able to like someone liaoz
Thank God for the speedy recovery!!

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 8:51 PM

Sunday, December 05, 2004

:[ busy..busy..busy ]:

finally know the word dat describe the new skill i've learnt. it's called 'multi-tasking'. i've neber been so busy so far. n i enjoy it. nw if i have nuttin to do i will feel in a lost. i juz like to get busy. it's very fulfilling. doing the best in Everything u have. u shld try it too..

i had a very wonderful army life so far.. wen pple tell mi to endure it, i actually told them "hey, i enjoy it" its realli a prayer come through. i have wonderful frenz n wonderful superiors. wonderful camps n wonderful chances. not many pple can have an experience like mine n i thank God for it..

For those whu duno, i was in bmt for 7 wks. a modified bmt. later i pass out n went to OETI to train to be a 'b' vech mechanic. the most useful of all. u noe, i alwaes have these inner desire to b a mechanic. gettin dirty n stainful. after 5 mths there i graduated n came to 6DSMB at katib area. i take a 15min lil'traffic journey on bike to camp. its a very slack place to be. operates more like a copperate organization. of coz got regimental. n the guard duty lagi best. do public holiday v.best. i rem my fav warrant (whu is the duty officer on dat day) once said," once the gate close, outside pple cannot see us. if pple ask u got do prowling anot juz say yes.) this is the attitude for most of the commanders. i did for deepavali n is like chalet. i played cards in aircon rm, my fren wash his car, i play internet, play pool, watch spore idol & read book. my guard com even ask mi want to go out pump my tyre anot.. song bo..? haha

i did ground work n some ground project. somehw soon after i was doin paper work n projects projects projects for my superiors. it was then dat i develope this multi-tasking thingy. i was very busy. any one time i would be havin 2 to 3 task to complete. got due dates n stuff. its like i m doin one thing n than someone come up to mi n ask mi to do this for him. i accept as i noe hw to do.. wen the two things haven finish yet i got another job to do. everybody was pushin for mi. i couldnt afford to take leaves. even my bdae i got to stay for the mornin. onli leave in the afternn. wen time for mi to rest during my guard duty, i got to come up to help WO navin n WO ravi wif the WITs project report. i did 6 wits project report, fabricate one or two tools, gather the rest of the tools, in charge of checking the wheel equipment in the wrkshop every mth, did a 15 page report, did 2 power points slides, did a presentation, halfway did-up the safety manual for the company and i am plannin for the chemical defence training program halfway.. n mind u it was tough work. choosin pple to makin time table.. anyway it was frm having nutting to makin every single detail possible. i did all this projects in two mths time..

nw i have left 6DSMB to ESPO. my wo ravi n wo navin n p.c all dun wan mi to go. they are fightin for mi to come back. actually i wanted to leave b4 to have an easier life but i kind of miss my frens n my workin life in 6D. i was very much appreciated. n WO ravi n WO navin perseverence n plea realli move mi. fancy a warrant officer doin dat to a coparal. im realli touch n i told myself since they have the heart, i will give my best to them even though there is an easier life at ESPO. i ask them to find a replacment for mi. i also heard frm WO navin that wo ravi commented dat i can do ground work and also paper. wo ravi also told mi personally that i m dependable n good n stuff. i believe its the willing attitude that i show them dat move them. well, do unto men as if ur doin unto the Lord.. n the Lord will prosper u. its very true. i had about 13 off days in 5 mths time. try beatin my record..

i thank God for teachin mi the right way.. i wun have dis attitude without Him.

right nw i have to work at ESPO during the day. but im still in connection with 6D. went back last friday to do the chemical defence work. church n cg on weekends, meetin up good frenz, guitar practice, song writin n readin book every night b4 i sleep. ippt on wed morn n evangelist meetin on thur nite. a day to watch blade 3 nxt week. dis is my life for nw. no time for metal gear solid n grand theft auto.. haiz but shiok!! goin to join children church ministry soon. gonna add on to my schedule. hooooweeee

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 11:39 PM

:[ 2nd blog ]:

This will be my 2nd blog.. hope i can get in as much thoughts in it b4 it get wash dwn my memory drain into deep storage.

Well.. wake up dis morning tot i quickly write dwn my stuff. gotta go get my hair cut later followed by church. think wun b goin many places todae coz my bike is in the workshop.. haiz.. I got caught by traffice police (ROV) on my way to ESPO last thursday. Stupid leh.. dis catch is goin to cost mi at least $700 bucks. the worst one since my 3 years on the road. neber met such a siao-on TP b4. I was on the way to work n i saw dis bastard under the CTE amk flyover summonin another rider but about to move off liaoz. I quickly lift up my tinted bisor n on the headlight to prevent him frm stoppin mi. than i was squeezin through the cars n i saw the TP behind mi. but his bike is big so he got stuck. takin advantage of the situation i squeeze some more in front but i tot i couldn't shake him off if i con't the road. so i quickly filter off the road into an industrial park area n waited there. but little did i noe when i look into my mirror this bastard turn in as well. frm then i noe that he is aimin for me and not the ~on the path than catch lorr, cannot see than nvm~ attitude. so the first thing he got dwn was to take my licence n 11b n said, "follow mi to inspection." i tried to argue back but of no use. i called my warrant n followed him there. over there they took pics of my exhaust pipe n silencer. he told mi that my back light is not workin and goin to fine mi for that but my signal light he close one eye. good thing they didnt further check.. or else my fine money can dwnpay another bike liaoz. I was sad but the funny feelin is dat i didnt panick liaoz.. haha mayb got numb oredy over all the past catch. nw i cant spend much for the nxt 3 mths.. gotta save up to give them ang bao. haiz.. thr goes my 04 ERS.

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 9:25 AM

Friday, December 03, 2004

:[ my very first BLOG~~ ]:

Cool huh...
first time writing such a diary in my life..
Thought dat it was quite dumb to do e blog thingy in the first place but many pple are unintentionally influencing mi. Anywae tot dat it would be cool to write down the thoughts and the things in my life. Since im gettin much busier, it would be good also to kip track of wat i had done.

So without further delay, i would like to intro u guyz~ into a world of magic and wonders..
The Story of my Life... mattlex

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 8:21 AM