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Monday, February 28, 2005

:[ Hot in Herre (age limit 18 above for dis blog) ]:

It's gettin hot in herre.. but dun take off all ur clothes.. coz its coolin liaoz. some fren did predict e hot weather will end after Feb.. didnt noe he so 'zun'. mayb can get some toto num frm him too..

Ok juz pass a classic busy week. Highlight of it.. gotta be e church conference with Rev. Dr Ulf Ekman. He came frm Sweden.. A great apostle after God's own heart. Mi went for e Tues n Thurs nite, Sat 1630, 1930 n my own svc on Sun 1400. Wah mattlex nirvana liaoz sibo?? haven't yet.. i still smell like teen spirit~ waha.. ok no doubt learn alot. Learnt biblical fact about friendship, wat is God view about pride, the higher callin and you noe.. some of his personel expriences. Glad i came.. c") got my head spinnin, my heart pumpin n my spine chillin.. woot~ Cant share much in e blog though coz kind of alot..
(okok the followin blog is not for under 18s.. coz contain some stuff.. plz pepz)
Ok last monday.. funny sia.. after wrk went out wif Wenwen go suntec 'gai gai'. After dinner tot go somewhr juz chill arnd. Went to dis nice office place outside Milliena Walk. e place veri cosy one. Than there got one transparent glass waterfall thingy. its like the water slides dwn e glass than the spot light shine on it.. veri nice. (Dun laugh Wen.. ) haha We tried to take some photos.. than went to the back of e waterfall to take also.. Than notice at the other extreme end got one couple standin there wif arms wrap arnd each other n stuff.. ok they didnt do anythin coz we r there but u could guess wat they r up to.. (if ya duno.. a couple hidin in an exclusive romantic corner??) ok haha.. oh well, mi n Wen dun wana intefere wif them too. went back to e front.. Than ar the Wen notice somethin.. e glass is transparent one.. than we saw e couple mooching away behind the waterfall.. with e spotlights shinin on them sia.. wahaha.. 'bue ta han' Free Show Everyone!~!. (guess the weather is not the onli thing Hot in spore.. ) Mi n Wen went up front (seperate by a few meters of water) to study them.. we even got the cheek to squat dwn.. e couple did not notice dat they are being watched..by us n passerbys. guess e spotlight blinded them.. wah than they soo shiok. kissin ar huggin ar pullin ar pushin.. than e guy hand all over e girl.. smillin..sweet tokin 4 everyone to see. (can u imagine e scenario..) e guy wearin smartly still soo horny. see e girl reject liaoz still wan wan wan.. haha. We watch for arnd 15mins than decided to move off.. but b4 we leave, we took a stroll to e back of e waterfall to catch a glimspe of the movie stars dat nite b4 headin to marina sq. haha~ nice! This show teaches us one lesson. If anyone wants to do anythin couplely. better check sure e surroundings sia.. dun think u wana be watch..by practically anyone.. whu noes u might even end up in the internet. hope dun sia.. they turn mi off also.. dun wan to do in public liaoz.. hahaha Opps!
Wed n Thurs mornin mi went to be a safety specialist for the range conducted for some higher rank officers in e army. Wah their range realli privelledge. my conductin officer say," dis range special, 'they' have Maximum benefits" realli true.. the shooters do somethin wrong wun get scold one.. wrongly shoot also got 2nd try. they can come in any 3 timin of the day. can choose wana go pre-practice anot and e whole thing 2 hrs finish liaoz. Conducted by e SSC (SAF shootin contigent) veri professional. Mi dun nid to do saikang also. they brought along a saikang warrior team. mi juz do my job n rest.. not bad eh..
Wed nite went to had dinner wif my mum.. had a great meal.. Onli fri nite than had time for myself. spent it playin guitar. keke Sunday after svc went kboxin wif Wen.. not bad mi got a little improvement in singing.. u also Wen!! Cheers~!
This 3 weeks e wo harold went away to new zealand.. woot~ dun nid to see his face. now he's gone feel much at peace wrkin. than i actualli find e place not bad.. all e other officers also okok de.. dun feel dreadful goin to wrk also. mayb e Holy Spirit is wrkin in mi.. or e wo harold spoil it~ hm! but doesn't matter liaoz coz im still gonna relac wen he come back. If he doesn't like mi dats his prob liaoz..

lean back mattlex~~
God bless you wo harold~
Holy Spirit plz wrk in mi~~

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 10:51 PM

Friday, February 18, 2005

:[ Revive CNY and a little pepper ]:

~Drum roll~ ~Trumpet blows~

ehem!~!

Dear frenz...... n fellow countrymenz....... How has Chinese New Year been for u?? bored..? dull..? or can i say..Meaningless?? Yesh Meaningless shall b the word. Pple pple u have juz witness a growing prob in e last 2 weeks. CNY has not been wat it seems. studies have shown dat CNY is "JAH" for many pple (JAH is the scientific term for - Juz Another Holiday) Yesh even the bushes in spore are firing up!! Frenz have u ask urself wat is CNY like for our forefathers? Even though they get coins in their red packets yet they are more lively. Todae we wear 'red' color to stirr up the occasion but nothing is happening.. in fact we look more like walking ang ku kuehs and otahs. n children look like devilish red dates.. haha pple dun laugh.. have u look urself in the mirror lately?? hahahahaha. (opps..hope i dun get beaten up.) kkz pple juz jokin. u noe im full of lurve.. wat e hell.. back to business
ehem!
pple pple.. I got e solution to dis problem n im goin to start a revolution for it!! hear mi pple hear mi well. No the solution does not lie with us nor our nagging grandmothers...ewww. yup.. The solution is......"FiReCrAcKeRs" Firecrackers pple!! FirecrackerS~! Dun u see wat is missing?? we nid firecrackers to wake us up from our dreamy state.. the sound of it CAN make the difference pple.. trust mi!~! Prof Gong Pian Wei, a veri good fren of mine has shown mi his studies dat the special 'pop' sound of firecrackers can wake the specific Red Dragon that bring the special cny atmosphere into the air. yesh! Unfortunately its alarm clock went dead a few years back. Pple we nid to storm into the government building to demand our firecrackers. We nid to smuggle in frm the other side of the causeway. pple we nid to do sumthin.. Hell No will we let our children n children's children go through dis pain that we go through.. its Juz...not...Ritee..!~! *mattlex broke into tears* Frenz, we nid to do sumthin.. stay tune for further details..I will draft out the plans..u provide the energy. we will make it happen! stay tune
(haha dis is my blog.. i can write watever i want.. haha blehxx)

okok for some real stuff.. life in ESPO has been real sianzzzzz. last week tot i can go back 6D so happy.. my office clerk told mi he receive an email sayin tt my attachment to G4 ends 19 Feb. wo ravi go n check..than found out that e stupid clerk did not read the Year.. 19 feb 06.. Yesh dats my ord date. my attachment end wen i ord....wow....so cool. -.-
mi n some collegues are plannin hw to get out of espo.. wrk there is dreadful liaoz.. type, copy n paste thousands of files n numbers every day n goin to last for months. than the wo harold make life worst. yesterday duno wats wrong wif him.. i misplace 2 pieces of paper (not important one) n he scold mi some words. later he found the papers under a file and i didnt lose it. kaoz not even an apology. than wo harold dun let Max go see private doctor wen he wana report sick also. previously it was ok for him to visit a private doc but nw cannot. Max was upset. still he go to the polyclinic n got himself 2 days mc. Come on lorr.. he is sick.
2dae we the attach personnel had lunch on our own. than decided to play alittle truant. haha we all hack-care liaoz than friday mood than with our powers combine somemore. haha.. we go parkway for our lunch. 2sg liew said," aiya 2dae friday we give ourselve time off lah.. take it as friday our games day" He put his parkin coupon till 2pm.. after our meal we go play arcade.. haha i went to look for jasmine whu is workin there also. come to think of it, we r in e army somemore. but at espo is a little special as we wear as civilians in and out. Wen we go back, we are sure that wo harold will ask qns one so we cook up a story.. hahaha..i noe i noe. anywaez.. we reach back at 2.30pm over 2 hours of lunch. wo harold ask us and we say 2sg liew car hit another car.. so we had to settle things out n dats why came back late. wo harold reply, "we believe u guyz one.. u all wun play truant. but we afraid u all met with an accident. we r upset coz u all neber call back" (of coz he said with a tone.) than he said somemore," we here are very flexible with u guyz.. back at base whr got officers treat u all like dat.." haiyo.. in my heart i shake my head sia.. u duno all the mutual respect i receive frm my superiors in my old camp sia.. all hor ehh.. swee swee one. wo ravi find mi to chit chat.. wo chua invite us to his hse for cny.. wo navin personally bring mi go out eat lunch. n mind u they are wearing green. hw good are u wo harold..? hw come the few of us think differently of u? 2sg liew dun agree with u too lorr. anywae we are told to plan a punishment to ourselve if such things happen again. privately we r also plannin how to get back to our old camps. haha *the great escape*
got a little priviledge nxt week.. i was chosen to be a safty spec for the special range (shootin test) for the big shots in the army; chief of army n other generals. cool eh.. mayb terrorist attack n i 'take the bullet' for the chief of army. than u will see mi rise to captain mattlex within hours.. bye bye espo

Yeah..h..h..h..*snap*..h..
Dream eh bro dream....

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 11:48 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

:[ Trip 2 Bangkok ]:

Alrite alrite.. Touch dwn!~! forth and back from Thailand.. pretty cool trip except for a few setbacks.. learn a few things also; like learning to shop..! haha Neber shop like in thailand b4.

Okok depart from spore arnd 12:30pm last wednesday with a good buddy of mine named Ass-Ran. Air food was good.. He being the 1st time on plane, we enjoy the priviledge of actin like kids.. haha. (i noe i noe we r bumps) Anywaes, we took the same plane as Pug Jelly.. u guyz noe whu they r?? they're spore home grown ang mo punk rock band. ha~ would not have notice them without their out-of-asia dress sense n rebellious behavior in the airport.. lookin at them makes mi feel beri chinese.. Anywae, reach bangkok airport met up wif Ivy, a representative of mtv n her partner in crime..erm..we call her 'tintin' couldnt get her name. Ivy is a butch and tintin mayb her....u noe. anywae tintin looks attractive to mi. okok we got on our mini bus to our crib wif 2 other winners frm spore.. our crib - www.chinhouse.com u can check it out.. the place look quite cool on e net but the real deal aint there. Still rem the impression wen we open the door.. its like 'is dat it?? erm...ok' but e place is still cool enough.. infact we each got our own toilet to use.. (-.<) so we unload our stuff n without wastin any more time, we enter into e nxt phase of our trip....shoppin!

huhu..i neber shop like dat in spore man.. we got out of our apartment at arnd 4plus and shop for 7 hours straight onli stop for at most an hour for dinner.. we shop at basically 3 places; Siam centre, MBK n lastly the night market.. we were like so excited till our eyes cannot blink..haha. many things there caught our fancy.. n we walk from end to end, angle to angle not wantin to miss a shop. by the time we reach the night market my feet are aching n my eyes are heavy but still not closing it. hm! Untill midnite when the so call 'nite market' closes than we made our way back to our crib on a toot toot. Back at e crib, plan for 2molo, watch mtv n had a beer. mi went dwn borrow a can opener. at the counter n on the way up saw a familiar face.. it's Leandra (one of the spore idol top 10 finalist) she was wif her family. chat up wif her as they see mi to my floor.. haha they 4got to press their number.. Boo.. ok nxt day

Day 2 after breakfast, went for sauna n jaccuzzi.. Assran luvs them. so do i. (Ran, i was wrong about sauna makin pple thin..they dun actually.. they juz make u dehydrate) at e jaccuzzi, we bubble ourselves in any places we can reach. yup..yeah.. (*wink*wink*) Got one time Ran was bubbling his butt n i said.." Look Ran, ur butt is bloated." he turn n look.. "oh it is.. but hey, dats not bubbles.. dats my real butt!" ha~ it was the joke of our trip. (he got a male J.Lo butt btw..opps!) after dat we did alittle more shoppin b4 we gather at the hotel lobby to the mtv asia aid event. we saw other winners frm other country too. there is banana man frm china.. 2 sweet korean girlz, 2 shaka khanz(india) macho frm indonesia n of coz.. e 2 other gay bros frm spore. Ran, watsup with 'his' super tight white pants man?? its like sat nite fever.

nw we reach e Impact Areana whr the event is held. than the silly tintin got e wrong info told us to wait at a gate which neber open. when we go to the main gate we had to line up liaoz.. than the security are checkin for cameras.. so we smuggle ours in our underpants. wen come to us Ran got in but i was stop. not coz of camera but i was wearin a studded belt. kaoz i argue wif them sia.. 'came all e way frm spore lah..' 'i take my belt out, my jeans will drop lah..' but they say nope nope nope sorrie. i tot it was over man. i wander arnd feelin totally disgusted. than later ordered a jug of beer tot juz watch the live broadcast outside lorr.. but it neber happen. no live broadcast. than i say dats it man.. i gotta find a way in. i went to the toilet tie my belt arnd my ankle n stuff my digicam into my socks coz they were now using metal detectors. and my guts juz went up sia.. wif my eyes red frm beer i hold my pants wif one hand and raise the other for them to check. Bingo! i went in. But i was one hour late.. miz earlier acts like hoobastank n kelly clarkson n tata young... Ok nw in e areana...

huhu e moment i went in i was astound. Good thing i didnt miz the current act. It Was My Fav Band!! Good Charlotte!! Alrite!! i settle in the crowd snap out my digicam n click a few. they sang 'i juz wanna live' n 'lifestyle of the rich n famous' Alrite!! I lurve them..! they r soo cool.. glad i could see them on dis trip. they r base in america n they dun come to asia often u noe..
Ok nw whu did i saw dat nite.. there was jay chou, simple plan, naomi amuro, Chester (linkin park) VJ Utt n Denise etc etc, n e host was Alicia Keys. I get to witness alot of screw-ups on the show sia.. its like everytime Alicia Keys holds the mic, the sound system juz crop up.. imagine hw would u feel but she remain calm n good spirited. she even joke about it once..yup n jay chou dat nite was very himself.. he didn't tok much.. juz went up to his piano play 2 songs, tok abit n walk off.. hmm.. but e fans scream like crazy. even the thais.. ya n his singing n piano was good.
So e nite was soon over n i headed back to the carpark whr our bus is parkin. i came out alone as i did not went in wif Ran. we waited but Ran did not turn up.. could he be lost?? i tot. the bus left n i went back to look for Ran. soon after i found him. No he was not lost.. Worst still he lost his $700 digicam. Kaoz.. wats e story..? He went in n was standin quite in front. the security in front saw him snappin away n ordered to confiscate e cam. Ran gave the cam n the officer say he could get it back outside. Ok sounds innocent. But the security was no where to be found. his cam was not at the baggage booth also. so we were taken to see the head of security n Ran was ask to identify the corrupted piece of shit. but e event was dark n he could not identify. So we went back empty-handed in a cab.. Dat became the tsunami of our trip.. his digicam was wipe out in a split second followed by lots of turmoil after e trip back hm with his family. I feel for Ran but he said the tot of his moms reaction is unimaginable. Its like hw u gonna explain.. "hey ma! guess wat.. tsunami came in bangkok n i could not save e cam but guess wat ma.. i saved e leather casing.. nw aint u proud of mi?~!" Ok so e show is over n so is our trip.. the rest of it was gloomy..

For Ran, e trip juz gets more n more disappointin by e hour. he put in lots of effort to win e tix so he could watch his idol Xtina but she did not turn up. We were hopin for other privelleges in e trip like the pre-award party or meet e lucky fans session but nope.. dun have. than we could not stand 2gether in e show n worst.. e digicam. gotta fork out much $$ for his smses bills n $700. mtv didnt play a good host either.. Oh well but thankfully it did not get worst.. no panickin in a foreign land watsoever.. everythin is cool.

Ok e trip did not turn out as expected. Guess e best part of the trip was e shoppin n the 'to thailand' airplane ba.. come back was gloomy liaoz. even on airplane ask for the curry chicken rice also finish liaoz. stupit air steward still ask to choose.. hehe. anywae e shoppin.. i went there with one haversack came back with another 4 carrier in my hands. woot~~
Ya lorr, n friends, if ur goin for an oversea trip. plz dun trust foreign security pple.. even police. i learn it in malaysia n Ran learn his in thailand.
Dats all for "Double A's in Bangkok"
Tune in many times later for "The A's in Hollywood"

Happie Chinese New Year!!

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 4:25 PM

Saturday, February 05, 2005

:[ Overcoming Heartbreak ]:

After a devastating heartbreak, you may find a person wanting to get into another relationship (Urge to Merge) for.. watever reasons. Some gets into a new relationship to con't on re-enlighting their dream that was shattered. Some are revengeful. Their hatred is high.. wanting to hurt others the way they're being hurt. (couldn't care less) Some wants merge for confidence. There are also lonely people.. While others thought they are ready...but not yet.
After a devastating heartbreak, some will shut their doors to watever...forever. A few will juz wait for that particular person.. Is dat you??

Well, all is not lost!~! Breaking through from these beginning stages is a 'strong' thing. There are others to follow.. Breakin through means not to fall into one of those catergories. Well mattlex u tok like you not understandin like dat. There are emotions involve too ya'noe.. Ya i noe..but get your mind straight will'ya..

There are 4 'chains' we muz let go b4 we get attach again
1st thing 1st: We muz let go of her/him.. Cut off all contacts with him/her. (for your own good) Yesh there are songs about gettin back for a 'happy ever after'. There are also real next door stories about 'hw the old ones are alwaes the best' and reunions do happen.. But those are not for us to decide. We've ardy given our time/ our chance.. its time to move on. Take a deep breath, have stride in urself..and forward Overcomers! Till dat day come.. it will alwaes still be a distant light. You may say that if you con't to do something, somethings will happen. Well, u don't want to be selfish and manipulate a person feelings do u?? Actually, once u let go off this tree and when you look up, you will find yourself in a forest with many bigger, identical trees around. trust me..
2nd now: After you have let go of him/her, which you will truely do.. u gotta let go of the hurt.. that thought u have been circulating in ur head. Is not him/her actually, its urself.. dat person is gone liaoz.. its dat devastation we can't take it. The endin we dun wan.. Duno hw long it will take frm the 1st stage to the 2nd but take ur time..and focus on other things. The best way of overcoming is not to think of hw to overcome but not to think of it at all.
Nw comes to the 3rd chain: There is this time when we thought we are ready. Usually after the 2nd stage. Im a free man nw or a chainless lady.. There is this guy/gal that is waitin for mi..shld i started up?? No..not yet..
The 3rd stage is to get rid of ur Fear. Fear of a relationship or fear of the opp. sex. U neber noe if u have any fear until u r tested rite?? U dun wan to be holding his or her hand than u regret.. U dun wan to be puttin on a front and manupilating urself and askin 'am i done for this time..?' 'I like u but there is this fear that is buggin mi.' And when he/she cock up.. That person is not good enough. No way hosea.. Take ur time.. he/she will not go away.. If its so.. wish him/her bon voyage
Nw for the 4th: the 3rd n 4th work 2gether.. After watever watever, slowly build ur courage n urge to crazily fall in love again. Look for the person u can love as much as the one you love before. Dun settle for 2nd best.. Its good to set urself a target date NOT to get into a relationship. And after dat day u noe n u noe it will be a new beginning for u. Be generous about ur date setting.. Means dun juz set one, two days..or two, three months horr.. Set for monthzz and year/years.

Luv hurts -- After dis 4 stages u muz be ready to love till it hurts again.(means to be 2gether wif da person u truely love) But this time round you are armed with ur knowledge n lessons learnt. ur judgement may change or may not.. but hope u'll make the right choice this time.. All this stages will not 'bao zen' u a right person.. But it will prove to u not to give up on urself.. not to live wif a guilt, and many more stuff!! Best of all.. u gain another fren!

You may ask urself wats the use of doing all this.. Wats the point.. Ans: It will teach us to Take our Time..! Some pple live the whole life not knowing wat love is.. I pray we wun have to live this way.

Ecc 3:1 To everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under the heavens:
ver 9 - A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
ver 13 - And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God.

There is a childhood fren of mine. After a breakup he couldn't bring himself to love his nxt gf. He is no doubt a charmer. His frenz call him 'the king of one nite stand'. His partner range frm an indian babe to divorcee tourist. One afternn tokin to him on the phone.. he told mi he isnt happy.. Wat he realli wish is to go home everyday to the one he loves. Currently, he drinks himself to sleep every nite.

Likewise i got a gal fren (she is soo sweet) whu was in n out of relationship in her youth.. Soon after, she suffered frm depression for alittle over a year. Since then, she make a stand to keep herself out of relationship. Nw after 3 years she told mi she see herself kindof ready..means able to love again n her mess has been untangled. Nw she is a joyful lady and her smile can light up the room.

Well.. The path in front is alwaes blurry. And wat do u do wen u found urself in the pit of hell?? u kip on walking rite..! bcoz there is alwaes a light at the end of the tunnel. One more last last advice.. U dun nid to 'sleep around' to be love.. It was neber meant to be..

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 11:53 AM