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Monday, August 29, 2005

:[ Cease Fire at Espo~ ]:

Alrite nw~!!

IM GOIN BACK TO 6DSMB~~!!!!

Yesh~! Hooooooweeeeee!! U couldnt imagine hw carefree i felt on fridae.. Had my farewell dinner on friday evenin at marina south wif the frenz i made at espo~ liew, ronnie, james, yingjie, wang, marcus, harvin & dick. than after dat mi n james wen to chill out at boat quay.. james is a nice guy i met at espo.. he is a sporean but he alwaes believe he belong to australia. Than wang is the one that is takin over my job after i leave.. he is a simple and good guy~ i taught him watever strategy to survive in that office (more than my work) hahaa.. after being there awhile~ he told mi Hey~ he didn't take over my work.. but rather, it is taking over my problem..! haa~ but he get along well wif harold n cpt tan but it is siva (the big tummy vegetarian) that is bullyin him. coz wang is a nice guy. Juz recall my last straw of rebellious against him on wed.. siva told mi, wang n yingjie to help him clear the office.. i juz seat on my seat.. surfin my internet. "LATER! I NW BUSY~" i juz look over my shoulder b4 i continue lookin for my jay chou - qi li xiang lyrics.. "Wat are u lookin for?" he asked.. "I busy doin sumthin" He asked the 3rd time b4 he took the other 2 guyz away.. after siva brief them on wat to do~ yingjie nod his head and went missin in action for the rest of the day.. onli wang whu is kind hearted.. didnt runaway.. he onli complain to mi hw unwillin he is to do siva's work. hurhur.. siva is a guy that everyone dislike.. (from big boss to nsfs) there are pple whu are ok wif him~ they all don't interact wif him much one.. Siva is an indian vegetarian whu has a big tummy.. mi n yingjie both agreed that his tummy comes from being too lazy~ Y we all dun like helpin him?? coz he will tell u to do HIS own work and than he will laze arnd or juz sms on his hp. he is so free to look arnd for pple whu are free too.. One incident, he was task to do sumthin by maj goh. he then walk arnd the office awhile than he will come up to us.. and say.. "ehh.. mattlex ar.. yingjie ar.. wang.. come!" Wed evening, b4 we go home.. our big boss called siva.. "Siva! Come!" "The cables are still taped to the floor.. i told u to put the cables under the floorboard 2 mths ago ardy.." "how come it is still like dis??" On thursday.. Maj Goh (scrappin off the masking tape stuck on the floor together wif ronnie and yingjie), "Siva!! I told u to remove the masking tape since yesterday morning!" "Now i am doin it myself~!" "You 'Tek Gan' Mee ArrrH??!" Maj Goh asked. Siva juz sit on his seat and smile.. If i were in his shoes, i'll straight away get off my seat, fold up my sleeves, squat 2gether wif boss to scrap the floor~ Dats the like of siva for ya~ How can a person eat vegetables all day and have such a big balloon tummy??
Wed.. cpt tan (we shall call him Tan Mu Yen frm nw on..) tok to mi regarding monday's confrontation wif harold.. mu yen told mi not to take things personally.. wat harold said is for my own good.. it not onli apply to this office but also to teach mi wen i go out to work next time.... Wow~ very 'wei da' rite...? haa~ even terrorist have noble reasons why they can bomb pple~ I dun care wat reasons they may have~ if im hurt means i am hurt.. Im not a good person but im not bad either.. I can't work wif them. And erm.. mr harold n mu yen, if ya would to guess... the rest of the nsfs can't work wif you guyz too! wanna guess somemore?? a few other of ur age group pple call ya 'power hungry' and 'smiling tiger'. I call ya a 'scumbag' Tues onwards harold tried to be friendly wif mi.. even put his arms around my shoulder~ I onli answer him regardin work.. and onli on friday, i went up to him to greet him my final goodbye~!! we shook hands.. and i carefreely smiled at him.. than he said "Well done mattlex" (shld be referrin to my overall stay at espo) (trying to encourage mi ar~) (save it ba~! last thing i nid is ur compliment n views) Than wen i leave liaoz.. He told wang not to be like mi... do things slowly.. wen all his assignments are urgent matters... Well sorrie about it mr harold~! I juz regret im not any slower.. haizz

So back to the sun shining 6dsmb. The place of the rusty sound being played out of the scrape radio.. the cool breeze mixed wif the smell of greese and oil.. the dark stains of dirt sticking to ur arms as u eat ur lunch.. the gloomy workshop and office where pple shout from end to end.. 2nd level to 1st level.. haiiz.. thats whr i was well received last year dis time.. and felt truly love by my superiors.. especially wo ravi (a meat eating indian man though.. not a veg eater) He is someone that everybody respect~ Horr Ehh~!! Now wen i go back, it is goin to be a new phase liaoz.. things n pple has change and i gotta adapt to the same old brand new environment.. Hopefully i can strive for wo ravi again~ and peacefully go thru my remaining NS life~

Hmm.. Actualli i juz came back from a dinner function... ehem~ wif Mr Lee Hsien Loong~ u believe anot?? hahaa well... i got up-close wif him. gotta see the wringkles on his face~ yeah.. hahaa Its true lorr~~! =D but it doesn't matter.. most importantly is that the food is not badd. yah~~ still dun believe ar..? hee~ actualli its nuttin grand.. juz that i was 'arrowed' by the army to attend this 'national day' dinner function wif him coz of where i stay.. and Mr Lee is e MP of my area.. so mi and 10 other army pesonnel were arrowed to have dinner at our community centre. I was the In-charge of the rest so i gotta send back the attendance and follow up.. than one guy turn up in shorts and slippers and went home half way thru the dinner.. so im sorrie for him.. I dun wan to be the bad guy but if all of us wore our uniform, sit thru the dinner wen we all wld rather go home.. and he left like dat.. It wouldn't be fair to the rest and myself for lettin him off~ sorrie punk!

Yep~ dis has been my life dis week! harold n mu yen, thx for being soo soo concern for my future~ cuttin one of my off day for being 1 hr late onli once.. not to exceed an hour for lunch time including travel with bike or car wen mu yen himself could not make it.. could not leave 15 mins earlier for once b4 6pm wen mu yen n harold can.. ya thx!! touching are your noble reasons of preparing my after-army life~ you guys could not let mi go back to my old camp for 5 mths bcoz my old camp did not sent a replacement for mi.. now u guyz are sendin mi back wen there is still no replacement.. but bcoz maj goh said so.. (after he promise mi) shows hw superficial and fake ur reasons that u guyz cannot let mi go off b4~ One thing u guyz taught mi in espo is dat i shld neber sign-on in the army! Pui~!

mattlex: "wang ar..."
wang: ??
mattlex: "wen i first came in.. wo shi yi tiao hao han~"
mattlex: "now look at mi...... hahaa" (madlex)
wang: . . . . . .

The war is over~~ or is it not.....

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 2:52 PM

Monday, August 22, 2005

:[ the war goes on~ ]:

ARRGHH~!!
i did up a post and it went missing!!! now i cant recover it~!!

So sorrie guyz but i will juz rough it up for memory sake..

Its about mi and harold.. harold called mi to see him at 6pm juz nw~ he told mi that he is upset that i was jokin arnd and tokin to ronnie and others wen i am doin his work.. Well.. im not actualli doin his wrk.. but my understudy Wang is.. harold wrk can be done by a person.. or rather half a person.. all the while i was by Wang side tokin to him and stuff.. harold also said that my previous wrk got alot of errors which he had to correct for mi and stuff...
The truth is that he shld correct my mistakes after every assignments since Dec 04.. and not wait till now (my last week at espo) than tell mi he got prob with my assignments rite.. i rem i did ask him sumtimes if wat i did was ok.. he also did correct mi on the spot and i took back my assignments to do~ now he is sayin that i cause him more wrk by correctin my assignments?? well.. hw much of it is true~
so he did not tok to mi since morning.. 2dae's assignment was given to Wang and not to mi.. i did not join them for lunch too.. (i had been practicin dis since the time cpt tan told mi to have onli an hour lunch) and i juz came back from an MC last thurs and fri. (ya~ im sick though.. sick of their faces) so dis final week, are they tryin to 'tek gan' or 'disturb' mi?? such old men...
I argued with him... and i apologise that i am not good enough for him.. (im not apologetic though..) i stared at him and we had our eyes fixed on each other during the whole conversation.. dis time i was quite piss off and i believe its time i let him noe i hate him~! He argued and said that mi laughin and jokin arnd has affected my assignments and all.. i told him that since i give him so much prob means i am not good enough for him.. i do not want to go into details..
So everythin is gettin more n more exciting.. duno wat will happen 2ml.. 2dae he may not be ready that i answered him back.. but comes 2ml, he would be ready.. he wun let mi off or apologise de~ cpt tan overheard the whole conversation too.. so wat role will he play?? than 2dae siva got question by our big boss about sumthin he did not do for 2 mths.. so i expect him to tell us, the nsf, to do his dirty wrk.. we'll see 2ml~

so everythin is gettin crazier~ wat can i do but to fight on~ see hw it goes..
haiiz

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 10:38 PM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

:[ To every evil there is an equally good Force ]:

I was neber there before.. n i wonder
could i had survive... on someone's altar
she strive without a mind.. neber ponder
a future undefine.. yet we mock her

The sun is neber a welcoming heat
the moon was not seen even without sleep
and she reach home to a hive of trouble
crying for her worthless struggle

Was it ever worth it~
Isnt it too much to bear~
guess i had not understand
but im already prepare

No more without a companion
No more a dreadful nite
I cannot promise her prosperity
But i can give her a light

Brightly and neber to cease
living up for her decrease
though its neber paid in full
Its neber gonna be the least

I promise~
its neber gonna be the least

To the one that constantly oppose us
self is the most evil and it's lust
sucking for more, every penny in hand
would you be happier, wen we got no rent

How would you remember the time we spent
or my happiest point, you remember wen??
in my lost, you did not keep mi
in your hope, you smash us completely

Wat a waste~ did you see
a wrong bet~ 180 degrees
turn around now!? its too late
can't stop now.. it's already made~

it's already made~

Hw's it gonna be? I lay entangled
Im strained nw.. but not shattered
Gotta face this everyday. Im taken away
and i wait.. for Come What May~

Come What May~

(you like this poetry~?? Its done by someone i noe.. Hope ya did enjoy reading some.. ;)
peace out**

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 9:46 PM

Saturday, August 06, 2005

:[ The Heat is on~!! ]:

Hmm.. the war goin on in my office is gettin uglier n uglier... Well Be it!! Wana piece of mi..? Bring it on! whu noes wat will happen nxt week.. Thankfully for the long weekend break! We shall get ourselves charge up.. Cool things down?? i doubt soo...

Well im involve in an office politics cum army overpowerment.. Office politics is bad enough and wats worst.. Being in army whr u are being hold down by ur ranking and i am at the bottom of the food chain.. I cant express myself freely and cannot fire those scums~ I gotta be cautious wif my words alwaes.. >.-

Wat happen last week?? More n more pple are gettin involve.. Hmm previously i was shifted to sit behind harold.. (Thankfully got my understudy to lighten my burden~) On tues i went out wif another Cpt Olivia, miss shirley n james to tampines mall to have our lunch~ Coz we had waffles after lunch, we spent 1.40 hrs for lunch n travel time.. came back cpt tan calls for mi and wanted to scold mi n wat not.. coz i went for lunch too long.. (ya its long but we neber practice limitin our lunch time at espo since the beginin..) so he want to play bastard wif mi.. But as soon as i said i went out wif cpt olivia.. he hold back awhile~ (coz if it was wif the other nsfs.. he can shoot mi upside dwn.. but i am wif another officer same rank as him he cannot do anythin coz its not respectin the other cpt..)
cpt tan: "do u noe that our lunch time is 1 hr??"
mattlex: "yes i noe"
cpt tan: "do u noe b4 hand that they are goin to tampines mall??"
mattlex: "yes i noe"
cpt tan: "than wat reason do u have for taggin along them.. since u noe u wun make it back in an hr??"
mattlex: "i gt no good reason sir.."
cpt tan: "huh..?"
mattlex: "i gt no good reasons.."
ok and cpt tan let mi off with a warnin not to exceed 1 hr.. sayin also that other tracks can go for 2 to 3 hrs and he dun care.. but for our em track, its 1 hr.. Fine i said Ok. Than he went to complain to maj goh about it.. so maj goh comment that if the officers wana go someplace far for lunch.. they cannot bring us go.. Fine i neber wana join them again anywae..
Nxt day.. lunch again mi n liew n james went on our own to onan rd. There the indian food power one!! n made it back in an hr.. the officers had more than an hr.. but harold is upset bcoz i didnt inform him that i went out for lunch on our own.. (dis rule previously din apply also) his reason is bcoz in the army all personel whrabout muz be known at all times.. Anywaes i did tell wo sim but i 4gt and ans harold that i told wo phillip. So i made a mistake~ Big deal rite.. But he is Angry! woooh~
That mornin cpt tan went to complain to Ltc kuam, our big boss, about sumthin.. miss shirley overheard n told mi.. Its not directly bout mi but its sumthin bout discipline, lunch hr n rules for the men as a whole~ But kuam listen liaoz and indirectly shoot him back~ He said that everyone of us come frm different bases and camps wif diff ways of wrkin and discipline~ He cannot anyhw imply his rules or practices over the men bcoz he is juz like a supervisor here and also a worker.. And the men will not respect him.. But kuam said himself is different bcoz he is the big boss here and its his rules arnd.. He said sumthin like diff mugs have diff capacity.. no matter hw much we pour into the mug, if it cant contain means it cant contain.. (wow not bad rite..)
Ok lastly on friday~ mr siva want to play bastard too.. he ask 5 of us to come out wif some 20 suggestions and hand it to him by the end of the day.. we did halfway n hand in to him at 5.30pm.. coz we cant think of any more suggestions. so he marks 6 out of 12 suggestions approve.. than he told us to stay back to finish till 20.. (1st thing, he got no right to tell us to stay back coz he is not a military person) I n liew beri hot liaoz.. "Cannot lehz i not creative hw ar??" i arrogantly shoot him.. want to pick a fight wif him liaoz.. siva said, "simple suggestion cannot think out meh?" i reply the same thing.. "i not creative.. hw ar??" i ans him the same thing 3, 4 times and he turn arnd to tell the rest to finish up. liew than anyhw write on a piece of paper 20 suggestions and hand in to him.. he read n reject 6 n tell us to finish up if not we cant go hm.. we r angry but we r not afraid.. liew ask us.. "u all in a rush meh?" "nopez~" we all answered than we went out of the office to relax. slowly slowly take our time till 6.30 than we went in again.. he rejected about 4 and mi n liew ans him back watever he shoot us..
mattlex: "tv cannot mehz.. if dis is my office i put tv.."
siva to liew: "u r an army regular personel..."
liew: "soo??"
siva: "ok i give u all till thurs n muz finish till 30 suggestions"
mattlex: "why muz we do 10 more??"
siva: "bcoz...bcoz...."
(coz wen we r outside, cpt tan came up to us n said that if we dun hand in within 10 mins, siva is goin to add another 10 more... n nw siva dun dare to tell us that he did dat intentionally)
than siva said that bcoz he wans to see effort being put into the thinkin of the suggestions and not anyhw put dwn.
mattlex: "but i not creative lehz.. hw ar??"
again he didnt ans my qn n told us all to go back n hand in on thurs.. we all left~
siva purposely wans to disturb us.. one gd evidence is dat he made a suggestion for us.. so we jot it dwn. Wen he read that same suggestions he commented that we did not write the problem dwn properly.. the thing is dat its his suggestion n he noes very well wat it means.. nw he is questionin us the reason for his suggestion... forgettin its his idea..
pple in the office dun like siva coz he does not do wrk and wif no authority, bosses pple arnd.. than he call pple like wif no respect one. shirley, harold, maj goh are the few i noe whu dislike him~ he alwaes tell pple to do his wrk.. like suggestions are not our business too~ miss shirley also alwaes counter him back by not doin his wrk and in the end siva got scolded.. such are the pple in espo~

hm~! my life in army.. will it get uglier..? i dun care~ i wun get extra duties and the most is juz scoldin.. am i afraid of their scoldin?? i dun care~ even if the whole office got sumthin bad to say about mi.. haa~ but i make sure i do things i wun land myself into detention barracks can liaoz..

haa~ kip ya guyz update~!!

:[The Story of Mattlex]: | 8:32 PM