When i was on course for the past 2 mondays and tuesdays, our trainer said something which left me wondering for awhile..
"it is humanly impossible to cry when you are looking up"
Do u think this statement is very true?.. when we cry we always look down.. i believe all readers of this blog has been sad once before.. did you cry with your head tilted up?
Than we may say.... ya i saw on TV when a mother was grieve for her lost child to the flood disaster. She was looking up and her hand gesture would suggest that she was asking WHY such a thing happen...
Ya.. she was wailing but her eyes were close when she look up.
its human error to cry with tears flowing down and our eyes looking upwards.
thats why mother always coax their lil child to look at the sky... (find the plane.. find the birds..) when he/she is crying.
Cause once the child LOOK UP,
the child stop crying....
Its easier to stop a sad moment with our heads tilt up..
Last nite i went to my senior place for Hari Raya dinner. Together with one of our property agent who is closer to us.. He bought his youngest kid and wife down.. and my malay senior had 4 kids. We watch Transformers on DVD and his wife was a great cook. Frankly, its the first time i felt malay food are soo nice to eat.. Its nothing like those muslim food we ate at the hawker..! Its delicious!
Anyway, wat got my thoughts flowing was seeing the 2 families together.. The property agent whos quite money minded (as all agents are.. coz they dont get basic pays) was at peace with himself and family. Wrapping his arms around his wife. His kid watching the TV screen.. Disturbing the kid inbetween the movie.. And he is the same person when he is at work or with his family..plus adding his loving side.
My senior was playing with his kids and disturbing them.. His wife was preparing the meal and coffee.. and his house was very well kept and clean.. The 2 couples seem to know each other through and through inside out..and supportive of one another.
I was motivated when i fellowshipped with them yesterday.. And I shall let you in on a secret.. I never knew family is like this.. It got me motivated..
After that I went to pasir ris chalet to find a few friends.. Its good timing they were having a stay there last nite.. And low and behold.. the agent also went there with his wife and kid. Bringing the kid to play arcade.. Soo sweet..
I was on my way out around 11plus.. I notice his wife again.. This time her countenance dont look good.. And she was standing outside the jackpot room.. Opps!
Last night i had a wild dream..
I dreamt i was in Resident Evil 4 movie. I dreamt of the whole story plot from begining to the last part. There were interesting characters and zombies..
We were being chased by zombies and we caged ourselves inside an barrack-like area. And we were hiding and faking like zombies to walk among them.. People were risking their lives to make a living in the zombie infested earth.. And four self centred patrons who wore expensive suits and garments came up to our caged up camp. They said smugglishly that they had the cure to the zombies problem.. And my dream ended somewhere there.. It was time for me to wake up for work.
Its a dream..! and you know its interesting when I had zombies last night and yet I dont call it a nightmare..
For most of my time i tried to convince myself that i am able bodied. That got me pretty constrain.. But I am now convinced that I am disabled. Im quite a handicap. There are certain things I cant do and there are certain parts I am Not. And I had decided to quit acting perfect.
For most of my life I tried to be somebody else. I hope to be that somebody else. Now its time to be me.. And I am Not abled. Like Nick Vujicic, I stopped praying for hands and limbs. Im Free..
http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/
Also, better get rid of you and than i get back to me.. coz you make me feel so damn unpretty... Whuever you are.. hahaa
I must thank my friend Robin for his timely and rich advise.. Its common grace..
The best advise we could receive should come from sources of higher intelligence. Usually - God.
And God does speak thru men.
When I told Robin about my despair that was eating me up inside, Its like God speaking thru him and I felt it lights up my inner being. As though I had a revelation. I just wanted to confide.. I didnt expect much. But Im glad I was not too proud to hear out from him.
Robin, my childhood friend.. Im glad i still have him. For me and him and a few others, I spent the most memorable and fun time with..
codename: 'shopping' & '40 bottles of beer'
...will forever live in my memories
never will there be a repeat again..
I was troubled when I learnt that Resident Evil Extinction is the final installation to the first zombie killing flick. It got me for the whole of yesterday..
so sad..
hahaa
Its a great movie.. better than harry potter.
Milla Jovovich is pretty!
I previously watched Ocean 11, 12 & 13...
This movies were alot of fun just watching it..
How they did the impossible to rob high security las vegas casinos and fooled their obstacles.
This is one movie you cheer when the robbers win and you hope they dun get caught.
One of a kind movie!
& I still feel cheated by 'balls of fury'
pui~
Resident Evil Extinction is the bomb!!
Milla is great~!!
Movie is awesome!!
I hope that the zombies wont be killed easily and there would be a forth installation and fifth..
And i felt zombies lurking at corners on my way home after the movies...
Lifehouse - First Time
We're both looking for something
That we've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide
Looking at you,
holding my breath,
For once in my life,
I'm scared to death,
I'm taking a chance,
letting you inside.
I'm feeling alive all over again,
As deep as the sky, under my skin
Like being in love,
she says For the first time
Well maybe I'm wrong,
But I'm feeling right
where I belong
With you tonight
Like being in love
Can feel for the first time
The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes
Looking at you,
Holding my breath,
For once in my lifeI
'm scared to death,
I'm taking a chance,
Letting you inside.
I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love,
she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love
to feel for the first time
We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home
I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love,
she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love
can feel for the first time
Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love can feel for the first time
here is another jam by Travis Barker!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RKQgDY0pZ68
I think he is the coolest drummer on the planet..
hope u fall in love with him after watchin this gig..
this is the day i will remember..
Im now 59kg!!
ate quite alot this past week.
hope to maintain there nw.. my aim is 66kg..
Debbie
i just realise that she is actually quite shy in a sense. after she vomited or pooed, she will b quiet. lying with her head on her paws at some place. (she came unto my bed yesterday..) my mum and i would thought wat had happen to her.. than we will realise that she had just pooed.. or vomited. Than after the mess was cleared, she would be hyper again.. dogs also will be paiseh one..
=p
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